29: An Experience With One Of My Disciples

"I will tell you about an experience I had with one of my Disciples who, although he was my Disciple, did not follow my teachings of Truth nor did he live the life of a true Servant of the Light.

Indeed, this Disciple was a humble man, who everyone appreciated. And because of this fondness that he had with people and which he appreciated very much, he did certain things only in order to impress and to continue to be appreciated, when in reality he was not the one that people believed and loved so much. He was a man who often wanted to do the work of those who were not fit and available. He was always on the lookout to ask if there was anything else he could do to help.

I used to meet with the Disciples in a meeting to talk and share with them the teachings on a subject they had been raised, which I found important and required some explanation to help them come to an understanding. I could see that this knowledge would be useful in their lives and that they could also use it to help others who would bring up similar issues. Before the end of each meeting, I asked questions to get everyone’s opinion on what was happening at the Mountain and on all the events in general. It was a time when everyone had the opportunity to share what they thought and my secretary would write it down so that we could discuss it at a later meeting. I was keen on having everything written down so that I could look back on the opinions when I was in my office. Another question I asked was whether everyone had understood the teaching on the day’s topic and, if not, another meeting was arranged where we would discuss it again. But, in general, everyone said that they had understood what was being taught.

Regularly, at the end of these meetings, as everyone began to leave the room, this same Disciple would stay to tell me that he was not going to be there. Where was he when the question was asked before the end of the meeting and then came with his concerns, the answers to which would have benefited all if he had asked his question in the room in everyone’s presence? I would respond to this Disciple by talking calmly with him. I would try to answer him so that he would understand, but it would take up the time that I had planned to use for other things that I always planned after each meeting. If he saw me during my walks, he sometimes followed me to ask me about life in general. I appreciated this Disciple whom I had called to help me in my Mission, and out of Love, I did everything to give him some explanations which would help him in his evolution.

One Sunday, after worship, I was out walking and reflecting on this Disciple. And an image appeared to me. It was the image of a demon that was not pleasant to see. I stopped and asked my Helpers and Guides to research what had just happened. I sometimes used their service in such cases to get more information about the person I wanted to help.

Even before the answer from the Helpers reached me, I had understood something of the behaviour of this Disciple. He was almost always dissatisfied or did not immediately understand the teachings we shared together during the meetings or after worship. He always wanted to ask and ask questions. I found this normal. I appreciated his way of asking questions to deepen and better understand these teachings. I then wondered about the particular reaction of this Disciple and I ended up discovering that he was following another teaching than mine. Each time, he was overwhelmed by the explanations from the Grail Message.

Actually, he was friends with a cousin who was a Catholic priest. But he did not want to talk about his life and his family. He told me that his real family was the family of the Grail Message and for him this answer was sufficient. He behaved as a loyal person who gave himself to the service of the Light. He only became agitated when questions about his family arose. For him, the main thing was to know that he was a loyal person who gave himself to the service of the Light, that he was valued by all in his work because he was humble.

This Disciple had private meetings with Catholic priests who did not want to hear about the Grail Message. He had doubts at first about some of the teachings and about myself, but he could not say so.

Since he continued to hide his doubts, his worries, his impressions of me and the teachings I was giving, the pressure on him increased. But he continued to meet with these priests from time to time. The priests were beginning to inculcate in him things which disturbed him and that made him ask me questions of all kinds.

When a person has doubts, he cannot be at peace within himself. He will constantly ask himself questions for which he will not have satisfactory answers because of the doubts he entertains and which are bad if he wants to know the Truth. Such a person becomes passive with inappropriate thoughts which are not constructive. Such a negative attitude gives an opening to darkness which strongly influences the doubting, uncertain and troubled person to develop negative thoughts.

The priests with whom he met had negative thoughts about me and the Grail Message. They were in contact with the government officials, as well as with the Nazis, who wanted to have control over everything that was happening and being done at that time. He had meetings with these priests who taught him something else, but, since he lacked discernment, it was impossible for him to clearly distinguish what he was receiving from these priests from what he was receiving from me as teaching in our meetings, and he mistakenly believed everything he was told. He even participated in public conferences, but even so, he was still not satisfied. So, I soon realized that he was in contact with priests who were involved in dark practice* at that time. Some of those who attended that church knew to some degree about these practices, but they did not really talk about what was going on with these priests.

The Disciple was being used against the Truth unknowingly and unwillingly. He was perplexed by the various teachings he was receiving. Instead of questioning all this to know the truth that would free him from the silent inner suffering caused by doubts, worries and worries of not knowing the truth, he continued to keep silent. Yet, he knew he needed help. But who should he confide in if he hoped to get the truth? In spite of all the clear and convincing explanations he had received from the Message, he still had doubts within himself and could not make up his mind. All these attitudes of permanent doubts, worries, concerns, uncertainties, and even more the fact of not speaking about it, opened the door to darkness. He consequently attracted demons that did their job to maintain him in this state to control him thoroughly and did everything to prevent him from thinking properly, which would have led him to find the truth. That being so, whenever he really wanted to think and reflect comprehensively, the demons controlled him, approached him and influenced him so that he had only negative and confused thoughts.

I noticed that he could not concentrate at the time of the prayer and, when it was his turn to pray, he would give all sorts of reasons to withdraw, which some people did not receive well; at the same time, we understood that he was not ready to pray. Prayer is something for which the one who is chosen to do it, must prepare himself very well in calm. The other questions that this Disciple was asking came back to my memory, which allowed me to have understood him better. For their part, the Helpers had done their task of exposing the life of this Disciple to me openly. There was nothing wrong in what he did; on the contrary, he was always present when other people were not available to work. I liked him in his work and in the way he served in the Mission. But it was the doubts that crept into his head as a result of the confusion he had between the teachings of the priests and those of the Grail Message. He followed the teachings of the priests, which upset him to such an extent that he adopted negative attitudes and developed doubts, thus giving an opening to the darkness in his life.

I trusted the Light to help this Disciple in his evolution. I always worked discreetly to help my Disciples and others around me. I would send him the Force of the Light so that he could think lucidly in order to discover the Truth in the teachings he received from the priests and the Message. We continued to meet as usual. At some point I began to notice that he did not ask as many questions as he used to. And, at the same time, he was happy to be with the other Disciples and to be able to work with them. He had finally discovered the Truth.

Now he had to live this Truth, put it into practice, act and not live hypocritically. He had to be sincere, frank, honest, and true in all that he did in his life. Despite this change in his way of life, he could not sleep. So he decided not to have any more meetings with the priests. His cousin, who was already ill, died. This meant that he was no longer in contact with the priests. He was more often with the other Disciples, something he had not done regularly before, and people began to wonder about his discreet life. He came to the meetings often, so I could read in his thoughts that he was not calm inside.

One day, very early in the morning, he asked to meet me as I was about to take my walk, As I knew him, I made him wait for a while. When he entered my office, he knelt down and asked the Light for forgiveness for his action. I did not accept that people should ask me directly for forgiveness, since it is to the Light that one must first ask for forgiveness. He had assimilated this teaching and therefore asked the Light for forgiveness. I asked him to stand up and sit on a chair. I took the opportunity to tell him everything that was really happening to him. He was quite surprised to know that during all this time I was aware of everything that was happening in him. I gave him teachings that could help him and that in turn could help other people who had the same problem as him.

He was happy, became my friend and remained faithful to me until my departure from the earth.

There are people who know the Truth, but do not live this Truth. The greatest problem with all human beings is that they do not live the Truth in thought, word and deed in every moment of their lives and according to the knowledge they have. This Truth clearly explains the importance and consequences of living or not living according to it. You have the Truth, so what you have to do is to put it into practice so that it transforms your life. To do this, efforts and even sacrifices are necessary for you in your way of life. Persevere in this way with conviction and confidence in the Light. Some Servants do not serve It with sincerity. As for the doubt, several of those who were around me lived in doubt, especially in connection with my Personality. Most of them did not understand my Message at all, otherwise they would have had this conviction which would have given them a greater confidence in the Light and in me who was sent by God. They would have had this conviction and this confidence that nothing in the world could take away from them.

A Servant, an Envoy of the Light, must always walk in the Truth. There must not be a single area in his life, however private, where he is not bound to conform to the Truth. At every moment, throughout his life, and in every situation, he must be in the service of the Light. He who has one foot in the Truth and the other outside the Truth proves that he has not understood what being a Servant of the Light implies and requires, that it is his entire way of living at every moment that must be in conformity with the Truth. This way of living must be done in thoughts, in words and in deeds. Only then can he be sincere before the Light. He who has not grasped what it means to live according to the Truth, cannot claim to be a Servant of the Truth only because he has the Truth. The value, the meaning and the greatness of the Truth are in practice. It is not easy to live the Truth, but when you really understand and have the conviction and the firm will to be at the service of the Light, you will end up being a person who will get used to it with time and will find it easy, normal and simple to serve the Light. Truth must have the greatest place in your life and only the true Truth coming from the Light. Only in this way will you evolve spiritually to be a true Servant of the Light."

* This refers to the practice of the occult sciences.